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 So college is weird.
Not going into lots of details... too tired and grouchy for that. But I like the classes. The surrounded-by-peers thing I like less.

Only one person from my high school that I know came to my college... and she's my best friend, and my roommate, and that's cool and all. But... she's the only good friend I have up here. And she's found other friends way more quickly than I have, so I'm not gonna just monopolize all her time just because I suck at meeting new people.

Mostly I follow her around, trying to make friends with people she's friends with. Which is working out as far as the guys are concerned; I like them. They're bizarre, and they decided to nickname me "Hymen" because it kinda sounds like my name, but that's not as bad as it could be. According to Miranda, that's their way of welcoming me into the group. And they taught me how to play Left 4 Dead.

The girls, though, are harder somehow. I guess because with the guys we just hang out and watch movies, whereas the girls take more actual conversation, which I'm terrible at. And a lot of them (and some of the guys too, to be fair) just talk about how wasted they got at  the party they went to last week. Which I knew was going to happen at college, but I didn't expect it as much from a teeny expensive liberal arts college, and not as much from my best friend's new friends. And I have nothing to say about it to them.

 There's nobody I can really go to with problems or worries or freakouts except her, and obviously I'm not going to complain to her all the time because hey, she has a life and worries too.

I just... Fuck, I miss my high school friends so goddamn much. And my parents. It's scary being up here like this. I've never felt this alone.